MIchelle checking-in:
“Observer of Humanity”
“Parttime Philosopher”
One of the things only a few come to finally understand about life, is the duality of each of us. It’s hard to imagine sometimes that the best people, the “heros’ in our life, also have a dark-side, that may have been dark indeed. Survival-wise, our basic nature is to want to identify “the enemies” “the dangerous threats” “the ones capable of inflicting great pain” and weed them out our life!
The “scientific” among us, want to even work to develop these cute little labels, to categorize, give each “divergent” their own taxonomy number, conduct their “research” of subjects, decide by their own observation who is more “statistically” likely to change and who are “statistically” less likely to….
…the scientists, religious or spiritual people among us, and the general community form their own opinions… of how “those” people should be handled….
….lock them up… medicate them… hang them… burn them… blame them for our societal issues…. grab a vibrator and “please” the woman (a treatment once actually performed for mental health treatment of ‘hysterical’ women)….
Why do we think we are SO much more advanced these days?
SMH (shaking my head)…. the HEROS, the GOOD PEOPLE, the RICH, the SCUCCEESFUL, the CLERGY, the GURUs, and even SOCIAL JUSTICE WARRIORS…. Are they REALLY…. that… more… advanced?
DUALITY is not just of man because there is for sure, a certain DUALITY of ALL people…
Now, I am not going to pretend like I have actually met every single person on this planet… but I have know a few from my own family and step family, met a few from different parts the United States, and even met “a few” who have come to live in the U.S, from different parts of the world, Mexico, Central America, area of Europe, coupe countries in Africa, Australia, multiple Asian countries: India, China, Japan, Vietnam, and so forth… I have even had a few interesting friendships with individuals in the United States from the Arabic parts of the like the United Emirates and Pakistan, and from Iran or Iran, forgot which one. I have known and interacted with some with six figure salaries and others living on the streets. I have not had the opportunity to ever knowingly meet, interact with, or even directly serve the super rich above upper-middle class in the states. I am sure, worked for them, in-directly a few times. I have sought out to read some of the stories or interviews written by them or about them, at times.
And honestly, in all that observation, I observed both good and not so good traits…. the longer I knew a person, the more of both sides of that duality I would discover….. therefore, the strongest place I observed such things was with family, friends and lovers…. and had a little less “data” to go on from their… until perhaps the “dawn” of the Internet…. where increased awareness of duality… became increasingly able to be observed by the ones “showing” themselves or outright lying about who they were, in the face of facts glaring and out in the open….
…to the truly perceptive…. this is not just observed in one group or one politician…. but in each and everyone of them….and the oh, so clean mirror before us….
There are indeed MANY that are still holding their ears or closing their eyes… or saying NOTHING or MINIMIZING the flaws of their perceived “moral” individuals, leaders, or people within their life…or themself…
I know, because, I was one of them. The realization of all of this, led me to lashing out and everyone and even attempting to end my very life…..
….but I “got past it”…. I realized, such if the nature of life, and the grand ‘denial” of most human beings…..
…It’s a survival thing…we seek out “tribes” and/or “certain groups” or “heros” or spiritual beings or some substance….for a sense of protection….
…We seek out others…who make us “feel safe” or keep us from being on the streets… or “less alone” in the world….
….when all else fails, we seek out…. words and writings from our ancestors, those who came before us…. who were trying to figure out the same thing….
….we feel helpless… so we call out to various spiritual beings, the Universe, the elements of nature, scientific law, “laws” of attraction…. or if especially desperate…”dark beings” to help us….
…sometimes… we see something occur after such prayers… and maybe THAT becomes “our Bible, or Koran, talisman, for of intelligence, philosophy, whatever….it CAN’T obviously be something “random” it’s not “statistically” probable…
….there is no such thing as coincidence….or random occurrence… look at the “divine order” of the universe….
Question? What are you trying to communicate Michelle? Are you just trying to piss off everyone?
Au Contraire! My only leading… direction… is this….
The ONLY way forward in my own life I have learned to move forward, GROW, overcome depression, addictive behaviors, and my own personal FAILURES, moral impurity, mistakes, short-comings, even shame….
…is to UNLEARN EVERYTHING….. and start again…..
…observe life….(Mindfulness)
…understand life….(within our capacity to do so)
…accept it for what it is…(DBT calls this radical acceptance)
…understand what I can control and what I cannot….(look up concept of hula hoop boundaries)….
WITHIN MYSELF…I had to learn misplaced placed OR appropriately placed anger would yield TOXIC RESULTS….9.5 times out of 10.
The only 0.5% that was useful, is when I used my anger to motivate myself to do something productive with my life, other than brew and steep the bullshit I was sleeping in.
Ever have a cup of bad coffee? The kind that has been sitting in the coffee pot for hours, with the heat still on?
Yep, that’s what it takes like, to keep drinking anger in your life over things you cannot control, a past (or maybe even present) that you cannot change or control….
…It ALL taste like bad coffee… and you can sit there… be upset about how horrible that cup of coffee tastes….
…Or, you can rinse out your cup, pour out your pot…empty out those old grinds of coffee…give that basket of nice rinse…. fill up the coffee with clean, cool water…. load up your coffee reservoir, place in a new filter… scoop out your desired fill of caffeinated coffee goodness….and press that brew button..
…WAIT….
…prepare your cup as you see fit… or just give that a good rinse, as well….
…sometimes…. we think we just need ‘better’ friends… a different ‘tribe’… a new family… or spouse… maybe even kids….grown or little…
Maybe it has nothing to do with ANY of that… maybe we just need to change the filter in which we view things….ourselves, others, and so forth….
….now, I am not an advocate for victim blaming or shaming…. if you are within very toxic or unsafe situation with yourself or someone else… do all that you are able to do (wintin your hula hoop) to address that…..
…but we also should not judge those who are not able to leave certain situations…. or chose not to for whatever reason they have at the time….
…i mean, you certainly ARE free to do whatever you choose and can do that… for whatever justification you’ve got over there….
So, why do I advise against it?
I could give a lavish explanation, but if you do not “get it” now, my in-depth explanation will mean nothing, until life teaches that lesson on it’s own….
Until then, hang in there folks!
Going through DISILLISIONMENT is not an easy task for anyone! But there are definitely a few more layers to it than most realize!
If you can make it through, layer after layer after layer and still be breathing?
Then you are NOT the weakest link, and you have INDEED won this round of the Hunger Games… you HAVE taken the RED PILL, and the Matrix, no longer controls you!
